Chastity Journal Entry

Goddess Kira asked me to post this Chastity Journal entry sent by Her princess:

What the key-holder agreement has done for me:

Your princess last played with h.er clitty two weeks ago, on the Saturday when s.he completed the masturbation schedule.

s.he is happy to report that s.he doesn’t miss masturbating at all, for several reasons. Firstly, the four weeks of the masturbation schedule convinced h.er that it is a stupid, “boy” thing to do. Secondly, Your princess’ sexuality is changing.  Thirdly, Your princess has new pleasures in h.er service to You, which are more important than masturbation and far better.

Your princess admits that h.er clitty does demand attention on occasions, especially when s.he first wakes up, has a sexual dream or when s.he spends time looking at pictures online. These situations are easily resolved as long as s.he applies h.erself to girly activities, which bring those last remaining “male” urges under control quite quickly. Your princess hopes this will be even easier as soon as s.he starts taking hormones.

Your princess is not substituting with other sexual activities.

s.he has not been with a woman for over two months now, although s.he loves to pleasure a Superior – h.er own climax and what gets done to h.er clitty were always secondary issues. s.he has not yet had sex with a man, although that will happen, if h.er Goddess gives h.er permission. s.he has not been with one of h.er TS friends for over a year now. s.he has not used a dildo on h.erself for sexual reasons, even though s.he still uses a plug and dildo just to keep h.erself ready for action at some later stage.

The first thing s.he has learnt from this short period of chastity is not entirely a new lesson. Your princess has always been slightly disgusted by h.er clitty and the only pleasure involved, apart from the brief climax at the end, is treating it like a real clit and imagining that it really is one. This is a pointless fantasy that has been replaced by a better reality.

Your princess’ sexuality is definitely changing under Your control – and s.he hopes it is for the better and something h.er Goddess will approve.

Although it sounds silly coming from a sissy, Your princess thinks s.he understands female sexuality better now – or s.he hopes so. s.he often thinks about dressing and attracting attention and the feeling this gives h.er is not the typical, cock-centred desire to have an orgasm. It is a much broader and more pleasurable feeling, which is exciting and fun but not based on a single body area or function. s.he enjoys the idea of being vulnerable and submissive. This is not just a pleasure – it is also being true to h.erself, which is something Your princess could only rarely experience before h.er Goddess owned h.er and took control of h.er. Ultimately, Your princess also enjoys the idea of pleasuring men and the completely different definition of h.erself that comes with that.

As for the better things, there are so many that h.er Goddess has already shown Her princess. Serving You, in any way, is the most important and the most joyful. Then there are the things that would seem small and meaningless to a Superior – let alone the Goddess Herself – but which mean so much to Your princess. These include: window shopping for lingerie and shoes; trying to learn about makeup techniques; shaving h.er legs; putting on h.er stockings and suspenders in the morning. All these and many others are better than masturbation or even sex – all the more so because Your princess knows s.he is doing them for You.

Thank you, Goddess, once again for the time and energy You have spent on training Your princess.