Period Report

Goddess Kira's princess has filed this report on h.er first period:


My first period

Goddess Kira was kind enough to allow Her sissy to have a “period” at the same time as Her. This was a great privilege and it has taught Her sissy many things. At the end of this report is some technical advice for other slaves who might be allowed this honor.

It was Her sissy’s first-ever “period” and something very special for h.er.

Keeping in step with the Goddess Herself, this was a four-day experience.  Her sissy was using tampons day and night, changing them three times a day (morning, lunch and before bed). Her sissy used tomato sauce as a blood substitute and regular tampons with an applicator (an insertion device).

The tomato sauce had the advantage of giving a mild burning sensation, as did having a tampon inside. It was bearable while standing, somewhat uncomfortable when in bed and very uncomfortable when sitting. It is not supposed to be a comfortable feeling and it all served as a constant reminder that Her sissy is privileged to be owned by – and serve – the Goddess Kira.

Most of all, it is a lesson in what the Goddess and all Superiors have to suffer a few days every month – although a sissy “period” cannot emulate the cramps and other physical symptoms of real menstruation. Apart from the discomfort, there is also the additional burden of changing tampons at regular intervals.

Though uncomfortable on a continuous basis, Her sissy has never felt closer to the Goddess than during this time. In that way, it was wonderful.

Her sissy thanks the Goddess Kira for this treat and cannot wait for h.er next period to begin. s.he also hopes to find some way to simulate the other symptoms of menstruation, such as cramps, breast pain and that bloated feeling.

For slaves who are instructed to have a “period”, here are some notes:

Blood substitutes are many. The Hollywood version is a mixture of corn syrup and food coloring but it doesn’t have the sensation that tomato sauce gives.  Real blood (unless it is your own!) is not recommended for hygiene reasons and chili sauce would be just too much. Whatever is used, it should be inserted manually before inserting the tampon in a suitable quantity to simulate the sensation a Superior would have. The average menstrual flow for a Superior is about 8 to 10 tablespoons of liquid during a 3 to 4 day time frame. It is usually a slightly brown blood color (darker than blood from a cut).

While a tampon can be inserted manually, it is difficult to position it correctly on the inside this way. An applicator (many brands have those included) is a two-part tube. The first part (with a rounded end in front) is inserted until its trailing end just protrudes slightly. The second part is then pushed in, while keeping the first part in position, which releases the tampon in exactly the right place. The applicator is then easily withdrawn, leaving the tampon inside with just the string hanging out. It is recommended that lubricant is used when inserting the applicator.

Plan your disposal of tampons! Male restrooms are not equipped with tampon disposal bins and flushing is not advised. Also, depending on what color lingerie you wear, it might be advisable to use panty shields as well to ensure there are no accidental stains afterwards. Tampons will stay in place securely in most situations but there can be minor leaks, especially for those of us who do not have vaginas!

Chastity Journal Entry

Goddess Kira asked me to post this Chastity Journal entry sent by Her princess:

What the key-holder agreement has done for me:

Your princess last played with h.er clitty two weeks ago, on the Saturday when s.he completed the masturbation schedule.

s.he is happy to report that s.he doesn’t miss masturbating at all, for several reasons. Firstly, the four weeks of the masturbation schedule convinced h.er that it is a stupid, “boy” thing to do. Secondly, Your princess’ sexuality is changing.  Thirdly, Your princess has new pleasures in h.er service to You, which are more important than masturbation and far better.

Your princess admits that h.er clitty does demand attention on occasions, especially when s.he first wakes up, has a sexual dream or when s.he spends time looking at pictures online. These situations are easily resolved as long as s.he applies h.erself to girly activities, which bring those last remaining “male” urges under control quite quickly. Your princess hopes this will be even easier as soon as s.he starts taking hormones.

Your princess is not substituting with other sexual activities.

s.he has not been with a woman for over two months now, although s.he loves to pleasure a Superior – h.er own climax and what gets done to h.er clitty were always secondary issues. s.he has not yet had sex with a man, although that will happen, if h.er Goddess gives h.er permission. s.he has not been with one of h.er TS friends for over a year now. s.he has not used a dildo on h.erself for sexual reasons, even though s.he still uses a plug and dildo just to keep h.erself ready for action at some later stage.

The first thing s.he has learnt from this short period of chastity is not entirely a new lesson. Your princess has always been slightly disgusted by h.er clitty and the only pleasure involved, apart from the brief climax at the end, is treating it like a real clit and imagining that it really is one. This is a pointless fantasy that has been replaced by a better reality.

Your princess’ sexuality is definitely changing under Your control – and s.he hopes it is for the better and something h.er Goddess will approve.

Although it sounds silly coming from a sissy, Your princess thinks s.he understands female sexuality better now – or s.he hopes so. s.he often thinks about dressing and attracting attention and the feeling this gives h.er is not the typical, cock-centred desire to have an orgasm. It is a much broader and more pleasurable feeling, which is exciting and fun but not based on a single body area or function. s.he enjoys the idea of being vulnerable and submissive. This is not just a pleasure – it is also being true to h.erself, which is something Your princess could only rarely experience before h.er Goddess owned h.er and took control of h.er. Ultimately, Your princess also enjoys the idea of pleasuring men and the completely different definition of h.erself that comes with that.

As for the better things, there are so many that h.er Goddess has already shown Her princess. Serving You, in any way, is the most important and the most joyful. Then there are the things that would seem small and meaningless to a Superior – let alone the Goddess Herself – but which mean so much to Your princess. These include: window shopping for lingerie and shoes; trying to learn about makeup techniques; shaving h.er legs; putting on h.er stockings and suspenders in the morning. All these and many others are better than masturbation or even sex – all the more so because Your princess knows s.he is doing them for You.

Thank you, Goddess, once again for the time and energy You have spent on training Your princess.

Real Enslavement

Goddess Kira writes:

Everyday I receive multiple e-mails from potential slaves inquiring about ownership.  Typically after one e-mail asking a few questions I never hear from them again.

Yesterday I received an e-mail from an unemployed "slave" in Belgium. Without ever meeting Me he wanted to move in with Me and had a list of things he wanted Me to do to him.  Of course he wasn't going to pay for anything.  In fact, I would have to support him since he had no job.

Recently, the best slaves I have found are on http://www.femdommesociety.com. If you are a slave looking for a Mistress or a Mistress looking for a slave I strongly recommend joining this site. Should you decide to join, please use My ID number 62156 or use this link: http://www.femdommesociety.com/register1.php?referral_id=62156.

To show the quality of the slaves on FDS I have reprinted a forum post on the FemDommeSociety Message Board by member CagedBarbie.  she did a much better job of stating what I am looking for than I could have. Are you truly looking for an owner or are you just playing games? If you are truly looking for ownership read below and then send Me an introductory e-mail: goddesskira@goddesskira.com

Ladies and submissives,

Please humbly accept this posting. i intend it only to help.  Before reading it please understand that i know there are levels of slavery, and that most people stay in what i call the "middle ground", where everything is based on safety, sensuality, and the Dominant and submissive agreeing together upon the dynamics of the relationship.

This posting is not really for the middle ground.  Having lived and participated in the middle ground for many years i strive to find the next level of power exchange.  A place where there is no negotiation between the Domme and submissive over the rules, where there is no safety words.  A place where real slavery starts.    For me true submission does not begin until the moment where i want it to stop and the Dominant says " no we are moving forward".

To this end i have created the following list of ideas that lend themselves towards real slavery.

Guide to real control over a submissive.

Real control over another person requires leverage.  If your relationship is hidden or part time in nature then there is little consequence to the submissive should he not obey.  You want to establish serious consequences for not obeying your every command.  Even if those consequences are perceived and not real..

Master list leading to complete control:
 
    Friends and family:  Others being made aware of your relationship arrangement is possibly the most powerful form of control.   This means you need to get to know who his friends and his family are.  Socialize with them.  Obtain email addresses, Facebook contact info, telephone numbers.

    Work or job:  who does he work for? who is his boss? who is his secretary?  Visit his work become friends with the key people in his social work circle.  He will be highly motivated to do as you say if he fears that you might out his submissive nature.  Remember this is the one area where he prides himself on being seen as a confident, dominant persona.
 
    Access to his home computer:   Ask for a complete list of accounts, and passwords.  The download app “TeamViewer”  is free and it allows you access to his computer from a remote location.

    Worship boards:  This is key to reinforcing your superiority.  It establishes a daily ritual in which your submissive must kneel in front of a worship board . The worship board is comprised of pictures of you, rules that he must live by, possibly a mantra that you have written.  Possibly your panties,  or personal items.   A list of goals the submissive is to achieve. Also spraying the board with your perfume is a strong influence. (we tend to underestimate the power of suggestion through smell).  Then have your submissive kneel in front of the board every day for 20 -30 minutes.

    GPS tracking:  With the advancement of technology comes the ability to track your submissive’s movement with ease.  There are many services online that you can subscribe to. Most have a small monthly fee and provide you with minute by minute tracking of your  GPS device.  A device that you can place in the submissive’s car, or lock around his ankle.  These devices are water proof units so there  is no need to remove the device. Most come with batteries that will last up to 120 days.

    Chastity devices:  Chastity is a must!  A submissive’s desire to serve is driven his sexual desire (in most cases).  Keeping him in a constant state of arousal will ensure his cooperation until training and patterns of submissive behavior become a habit.  Establishing that the penis is your property is important.  In the case of a submissive that you are feminizing and placing on female hormones you must realize that his normal male sexual drive will reduce with the introduction of the female hormones so it is critical that you replace his own male sexual drive with worship of your female sexual desires.  He must become a part of your sexual needs, and learn to live through your desire, and releases.  You must establish this as his purpose, failing to do so, will result in a potentially depressed submissive with no sexual drive.

    Cameras:  If you do not live together full time it is easy to set up internal monitoring cameras in his home.  Most cable TV providers offer a package, as well as many private online companies.  This service will allow you to access a privately coded website where you can view his home 24/7, from your computer or even your phone.  It is a highly erotic feeling to be able to check on your submissive at whim.

    Rules:  To take your Dominance from a point where it is just a part time play thing to a full time way of life requires real time rules.   For example not allowing him to sit on furniture.  Having him kneel face down, palms up when you arrive at the home.  Asking permission to pee, or setting specific times for sleep, worship, cleaning, diet, etc… are all important.  More important than the rules you set is making sure that you enforce the rules with an absolute iron fist.  He will test the boundaries. Knowing that the rules are real and that they have real importance will make him feel safe, thus allowing him to delve deeper into his submission.

    TV and Magazines:   You must control what outside information your submissive is viewing. His view of the world should be an extension of your view.  Therefore you must control what programs he is allowed to watch, what magazines he is allowed to read.  If you are feminizing your submissive then forbid him to watch sports, (unless of course he is dressed as a cheerleader) reinforcing that he is not a man.  Place only female magazines around the house, like Cosmo or In Style. If you want him to learn to cook, then leave cooking magazines around the house.

    Electric Fence: This is for the more aggressive Domme.  Shocking dog collars are commonly used to control a submissive.  Many bdsm companies now have a shocker attached to chastity devices.  A shocking device around the balls is highly recommended as a form of training.  Taking this to the next level is as simple as obtaining a shocker that works with a perimeter fence so he is under your control when you are not there.  This can be purchased at any pet store. Place the perimeter stakes outside the house ensuring your submissive does not leave the house unless you have turned off the fence. If he attempts to do so and crosses the line of the perimeter fence he will be shocked.

    Discipline:  Do not under estimate the power of consistent discipline!  The key to success is never letting your submissive get away with any infraction.  Punishing him for his infractions will establish security on his behalf this is a real.  If your schedule does not allow for instant punishment of infractions, then place a list on the refrigerator of all infractions and address them one by one when you have time.  Make sure you discuss out loud the infraction and why he must be punished.

    Power of attorney:  Slavery by law is illegal, but there are ways around this.  Aside from everything listed above, having your slave sign a power of attorney allowing you make all or any decision on his behalf gives you the ultimate power.

    Decision making:  While most of the “part time”  power exchange couples adhere to consensual agreement between the parties, true power exchange only occurs when one party has no say or choice in the decisions being made.  This is not to say that you as a Domme should not take counsel with your submissive at times, and weigh his concerns or desires, but your decisions should always be the final word.

    Body modification:  There is no greater display of ownership than for the superior to make modifications to the submissive that represent their arrangement and the superior’s control.  The most common would be a tattoo symbolizing ownership.  Others might be things like breast implants, nipple rings or castration.  Body modifications are permanent and speak to the irreversible path the two of you are on.  Done with ceremony and compassion such changes can be life altering moments that cement your Control.

    Cuckolding:  Although not for everyone, the chemistry of cuckolding your submissive,  by making him prepare you for dates with other men or women, making him watch your love making, making him clean up afterwards, or making him wait hand and foot on your lovers will take his submission to an all new level.  Use caution with cuckolding it will bring out insecurity in the best of relationships.  This is one area where some discussion and reassurance needs to be made to your submissive that he has a real purpose in your life.  That he is irreplaceable!  But that you have temporary needs that he cannot meet because of his inferior status.  Do not allow a lover to jeopardize your relationship with your submissive. Explain to any potential lover that you are a package deal.

    Feminization:  This is done to remove all elements of the male ego that may cause conflict within the submissive.  It also places the submissive in a state of mind where he is more in tune with your female needs.  Do not shy away from this form of control.  In majority of cultures around the world today and those dating back 3000 years,  all cultures have a name for a third sex, often described as feminine male who takes on the role of a slave in the household.   Some very powerful ways to feminize with immediate effects are to have your sub get fake nails applied.  Additionally long lasting fake eye lashes are the rage today and will last for several weeks.  Painting toe nails, smooth shaven body are all elements that will constantly remind your slave of his position in your house hold.  We also highly recommend corset training, hormones, and breast implants. Complete this process and you will have no need for a power of attorney; your slave will humbly accept his role as your permanent maid/wife.

    Toilet service:  Possibly one of most powerful statements that can be made is for the submissive to consume the waste of his superior.  Urine is the starting point.  Urine upon exiting the body is sterile and possesses no risk to the submissive.  Training your submissive to drink your urine can start with peeing into a cup and watching him drink it. Next is training your submissive to crave your urine.  This is a simple process if you take the right steps.  Keep him locked up in chastity, and only allow me out of chastity when you want him to drink your urine.  Allow him to play with his penis without release, while watching you pee into the cup.  Have him to continue to stroke his cock while he drinks your urine.  Then once done place him back into the chastity. Do this for a week or two and he will associate his own arousal with your urine.   His natural instincts will lead him to know when you have to go to the bathroom even before you say anything.   This formula can apply to other things like smoking and being your ashtray.


This is sissy rachel again and i wanted to add my two cents.  :)  First i thought that was a wonderful posting by CagedBarbie and i think her ideas are spot on.  Second i would like to express my eternal gratitude to the FemDommeSociety for enabling me to meet Goddess Kira (CruelKira on FDS) and many other friends.  i believe FDS is the best website for anyone interested in Female Domination in all of it's forms.  It is an absolutely fascinating place, to see the wide variety of Female Domination, both Pro and Lifestyle.  i have gone through both the FDS slave University and the sissy University and i thoroughly enjoyed both.  i highly recommend them to submissives and sissies.

Please note: Y/you will need to be a FemDommeSociety member to view some of the pages linked to in this post.   PLEASE use Goddess Kira's number (62156) if you join or use this link: http://www.femdommesociety.com/register1.php?referral_id=62156.

A Thank You Message to Goddess Kira

This is a thank You message i sent to Goddess Kira yesterday, because i was feeling so appreciative that She allows me to serve Her.  i was elated just thinking about the many benefits that i have received just from doing things to serve and help Her.

 

i have replaced some specific details <...inside braces...> that are not necessary to understanding what i was saying.  But should explain that i have a neurological disorder which has made some things i do more difficult than they were before.

 

i wrote a program yesterday to help me <...perform a task i needed to do for Goddess Kira...>.

Anyway, i want to thank You for inspiring me to work on the program, my fingers were still flaky yesterday and sometimes i got very frustrated with them.  But knowing that i was doing it for you made me press on.  Plus it has been a long time since i have done any programming that wasn't trivial, and i really had to force myself to think and try to remember how to do things.

So because of You i had to really push and exercise my brain, which i know is very beneficial to me.  In fact working on <...some other things to help Goddess Kira...> has made me have to think and exercise my brain a lot.  i feel that it has been EXTREMELY beneficial to me.  And it makes me feel so much better about myself.

 

Knowing that i can still do these things makes me so happy!  Just running that program that i wrote and <...accomplishing the task for Goddess Kira...> gives me such a thrill!  And also <...doing some things for Goddess Kira i have never done before...> i have learned so much (an old dog can apparently learn new tricks ;)

i really cannot thank You enough for allowing me to do these things for You.  It is just another way that You have improved my life, and in a HUGE way!  Thank You! Thank You!!  Thank You!!!
 

The point i would like to get across is that doing things for Goddess Kira, has been a huge benefit to myself.  And one thing that i should add is how much pleasure it gives me when i have done something to please Her.  i feel like i am on top of the world when i do something that makes Her happy!

 

-sissy rachel